Look what I’ve found!!! The brand new trailer and jazzed-up opener for Skins Series 5. Don’t know if I’m a huge fan of that music for the opener, but Arcade Fire? Oof. A show after my own heart. And while I’m at it, here’s a quick question/bit of intuitiveness – does anyone else think that short haired girl seemed a bit androgynous to anyone else? Meaning we might have a transsexual character?! Oh my, they haven’t gone there yet. How very Degrassi of them. Regardless, I will certainly be watching this. Don’t know if I can say the same about MTV Skins.
I read a lot this year – blogs, articles, books, essays. I also did a lot of my own writing. Here’s a compilation of all that I’ve learned, and where I learned it from, with special thanks to coketalk, Atonement, the South, and, of course, The Arcade Fire.
- Human contact is crucial. Talk to someone – anyone – every single day. (Thanks, Sylvia Plath.)
- Keep in touch so that you have an excuse to travel. You never know where time will take people. (Thanks, Grace Rosen.)
- Books are like people, but better, because they never change. (Take, for example, Harry Potter. Also, thanks to The Social Network and True Blood.)
- It is better to observe from the shadows. (Thanks to Lisbeth Salander, Simon Bellamy.)
- Comfort zones are for wusses (Thanks, South Carolina.)
- Sleep is great, but a sunrise is better. (Thanks, Small World, Emmy, and South Carolina.)
- It doesn’t matter so much where the feeling comes from, but rather that you are experiencing it. (Thanks to The National, Vampire Weekend, Sufjan Stevens, the train from Penn Station to Princeton Junction.)
- If you don’t get moving, you’ll be stuck in the same place forever. (Thanks, Sookie Stackhouse.)
- Childhood never ends if you don’t want it too. (Thanks, Harry, Hermione and Ron.)
- Patience is a very rewarding virtue. (Thanks, various surprises I have experienced this year.)
Guilty pleasure No. 1 – Ellie Goulding. Seriously, this girl is amazing. Her voice is beautifully distinct, and can elicit a whole range of emotions in me, from bittersweet nostalgia to pure happiness. She writes amazing pop music (yes, it’s pop music) that isn’t too sappy and isn’t too coarse, and has released some of the most amazing covers that I’ve ever heard (and we all know I love covers.) I didn’t think that The Temper Trap’s Sweet Disposition could get any better, but she does the song more than justice. And her cover of Elton John’s Your Song is not only lovely, but also has a dubstep remix that I could listen to on repeat for days.
I can’t wait until her album comes out so it can be the only thing I listen to, and get up to 50 play counts per song on my iTunes. But she’s not the only femme I’m digging right now. There is a plethora of amazing female artists that are emerging who aren’t oversexed or overexposed, including Florence & the Machine and Marina & the Diamonds. I prefer the former – I actually received a hard copy of Lungs for Christmas today from Hannah – but both have vocals as thick and sweet as honey and make some of the most gorgeous music coming out as of right now. I went through a phase when I would listen to solely male-dominated groups, like Vampire Weekend and the Arcade Fire, and of course I’ll still love these groups and listen to them, but it’s nice to hear a female voice on my iTunes that doesn’t belong to a Glee cast member. Makes me proud of my gender.
And while I’m gushing, can I say that Kate Nash is pretty much the best thing that has ever happened to my ears? She’s like a sourpatch kid – caustic on the outside, but on the inside, sweet. Sometimes she’s even a bit vulnerable, but mostly she’s a very headstrong songstress. One of my favorite songs by her, Doo Wah Doo has the line that I live my life by – “I’ll just read a book instead/ I don’t care if we’re just friends.” How novel! Not caring about unrequited love, not even a complaint! (Except for the rest of the song, where she rips apart a girl whom she deems “everyone thinks [is] a lady…but I don’t, I think that girl’s shady.”) Her music is ideal for a pick-me-up, because she has a very optimistic outlook on life that doesn’t stray too far from what is possible. She is certainly a realist (just give “Foundations” a listen) but at the same time, like I said, has a very good sense of humor about life and love. I honestly think that everyone should listen to her, especially someone who needs a smile, and at the same time should get me tickets to see her because my birthday is soon and that’s all I want.
STOP THE PRESSES RIGHT NOW!!! They might have found a cure for HIV!! Holy mom…I can’t even fathom this… Can you say putting things into perspective? I don’t even care about a certain letter I received today that did not have the results I desired in it. I care about this – yes, it is a long shot from being a full out vaccine, but this is the best news I’ve heard in months. This is overwhelming…especially because it seems like the discovery is accidental. And yes, it has loopholes and such, but quite frankly a breakthrough like this overshadows anything anyone could say to try to put it down, even if it does involve not only HIV but also (gasp) stem cell research! Dun dun dun… Okay now I’m just being obnoxious. This is really amazing. They’ve got a long way to go when it comes to cures and vaccines for HIV/AIDS, but I really feel like this discovery is a kick start.
OKAY so talk about calming my nerves… I woke up yesterday morning to a pleasant acceptance e-mail from Rutgers, my safety. I’m not going to be living with my parents next year! I’m in college! Oh, happy day… I’m so relieved right now youhavenoidea…
Here’s the only thing that’s been on my mind lately: Wesleyan, Wesleyan, December 15th, acceptance/denial, Wesleyan, more Wesleyan. Pending devastation. I’ve had a constant headache for the past three days. It goes away for a few hours, and I think I’m safe, and then all of a sudden, BAM! It’s baaaaack! The cause of it could be sinus pressure, but I have a suspicion that it stems from elsewhere.
I don’t know why I’m so worried and stressed. Wesleyan isn’t the only college I’m applying to, and I’m practically done with all of the other applications. In fact, I have my Barnard interview this upcoming Friday! I’m so excited for that! I shouldn’t be worried at all, in fact, I should be doing what I’ve been trying to get myself to do for the past few months – set myself up for disappointment. Lose all hope. That way, I wont be as upset when I get either deferred or denied. I think it’s a pretty logical course of thought. I’ve already set up my grief package for the aftermath: all of my Coldplay CDs, a box of kleenex with lotion in them, Lindt chocolate truffles and a brand new blank book to fill. But there’s a glint of hope in my heart that just wont go out, no matter how hard I try to stifle it. I want it to go out, because I know that if it doesn’t, December 15t will be hysterical.
Eleven days until the first day of the rest of my life. How do I deal with this? I’m lost, swimming in a sea of confusion and terror, and with each day the current gets stronger, and I don’t know how long I’ll be able to keep my head above water. I have never been this scared and excited for anything in my life simultaneously, and I really don’t know how to deal with it. Perhaps if I bury my nose in a book the time will pass a bit smoother.
I accomplished something today – I reached 50,000 words in my National Novel Writing Month submission! Which means that I won! It doesn’t mean that it’s complete, or that it’s decent, or that I’ll ever look at it again – it just means that I somehow wrote a 50,000 word story over the course of only 30 days! I honestly don’t know how I did it, or if I’ll ever do it again, but I’m content with myself in this moment, so I know that it’s worth it.
P.S. That icon is so much less impressive than I thought it would be.